A Time to Hate
Jesí watched the car pull around from a large window on the second story. The driver stepped out and handed the keys over. He carried himself like a stranger to the estate, but she knew him well.
As though he felt her icy glare wash over him, he looked up to the window, but Jesí had already gone. She would find a reason to delay receiving him, until she was ready.
She sat in front of a vanity mirror and pulled out a brush. Count to 100 and back again, she told herself, syncing each brushstroke to a count. Has it been ten years? Ten days?
For them, it was the same thing. She glanced at the small, crystal clock on the vanity and smiled in a wry amusement. How do you measure time when you bend it to your will?
Sometime ago, in the past, she remembered seeing the letter. He was being reassigned fo Tokyo, where he would be investigating and detaining a high profile mastermind in the MUFG Heist.
Reassigned. Without her. They had been partners for so many years, she never considered the possibility of him going without her. But they insisted she sit this one out due to being “indisposed”. She accepted it, embraced it even, in full support of all his achievements.
But he failed to share the fine print either her. The moment he stepped onto the train, the hands on the clock flew in reverse. He knew it, but she was unaware. He watched the world spin backwards while she slept peacefully. It took him ten years to sort out the mess with the heist, but he returned home to her in ten days.
And within those ten days, she changed. On the second day, she woke up, knowing something wasn’t right. She did not struggle to sit up and get out of bed, because her stomach no longer carried a miniature passenger. She swayed, gripping the bed frame tightly. A call into the doctor secured her a spot for the next day.
On the third day, she experienced a wave of emotions. She had expected a miscarriage, but could not account for the sudden change in her shape or lack of bloodloss. But when the doctor provided the paperwork showing the child never existed, now that was something else entirely. She choked on the grief and swallowed the questions. For now, anyway.
On the fourth day, she marched to HQ and demanded answers. She met with Agent Morgan, a kind soul who ushered her into a small, cold room. As the door closed, Jesí realized the answer she received would not bring her comfort.
“The train was connected to an experiment. We were not sure if it will work, and the MUFG Heist is the perfect scenario to test it. With its success, Brandon will set himself, and you, up for a promotion of a lifetime.” Morgan smiled, as if pleased with herself for offering such an opportunity."
“Did Brandon know what would change?” Jesí asked, not caring about how easy their lives would be with the new promotion.
“We went over all of the scenarios in great detail. He knew it was a possibility. But the implications were worth-”
“Our child’s life?” Her words stung, and Morgan could not finish her sentence. She fumbled for moment.
“Actually, there is one thing we cannot explain. Those outside of the experiment should experience the new reality and forget the old reality. It still possible that when he returns next week, you will not have to grieve.”
When she returned home, she canceled all of her plans and waited in the silence. Either his mission would fail and all would return to normal, or he would come home and never be the same.
And so she waited in the silence until today, the tenth day. Watching him approach the steps made her nauseous. She still had her memories, but nothing had changed the nightmare he put her in.
“Jesí, I’m home,”
She walked down the stairs, in her finest clothes and met him at the bottom of the stairs. He embraced her, and she returned it, slipping a gift inside his pocket.
“Come, I’ve prepared a meal for you.” He followed her, delighted by the candlelit dinner. She poured him wine, lingering near him, this lover, this stranger.
She did not ask him about his trip, or his promotion, she didn’t care. But she asked him about his plans for his future and smiled like she was fascinated. She kept her facade until the toxins in the wine took affect, and he clutched his heart as he slid to the floor. A pair of blue baby booties fell from his pocket and his eyes widened in surprise.
“Time is a funny thing,” she said, tapping a train ticket on the table as she spoke. “It turns strangers into friends and lovers into strangers. But I’m going to put everything back where it belongs.”